 | In between worlds... | Apr 15, 2006 |
This is where I ought to be. Another profile I shot. May special appearance pa ko dito hahaha.
I think si Aldrich and Dylan nag-edit nito
Download this and other original video files with Multiply Premium.Shot by me and Biboy
Edited by James
Download this and other original video files with Multiply Premium.My first full profile vtr :)
Download this and other original video files with Multiply Premium.I just thought it would make a nice title for a nice blog entry, but despite the sugar rush I'm having from finishing a handful of gummy worms, I just can't seem to pen down my thoughts, which are going at a rate of 1000 frames per second right now.
Too much sugar + too much free time = crazy thoughts and tons of nostalgia. And then there's the rain and the uploaded college pictures (thanks angel and edi!). Just like 5 years ago, I still can't see what I'm going to be 5 years from now, which may seem like a bad thing for a lot of people. I actually like not seeing myself 5 years from now, so that in 5 years I'd be surprised to see where I go. Like the way I'm surprised where I am right now since 5 years ago I never thought I'll be doing what I'm doing now.
The typical me hates bumhood and would do anything to be busy. But I am actually enjoying a bit of bumhood now, which is kinda weird. I just feel so free right now. I bet I won't feel as free when my funds run out haha.
I should be dancing. No, I should be sleeping. Hi! We're looking for people interested to apply as prod assistants, segment producers or researchers for reality or drama. If you're interested in joining the mind crushing world of tv, pm me. :) Before I graduated, I gave myself a deadline. I told myself that when I start working, I'm only giving myself two years to become a production assistant. I thought that if after 2 years, I'm still a pa, I'm going to move on to other things.
It's almost 2 years since grad. And after 4 months with ANC, 2 seasons of PBB, and 1 season of PDA, I'm going to do a teleserye as an associate producer. It's easier to say 'I wanna do a teleserye' when the possibility of doing it is, well, not possible.
I was telling a friend earlier about how I should have taken a break after grad instead of working immediately. I realize now, what for? To find out what I want to do? I already know what I want to do. To wait for the right opportunity? I already have opportunities before me. To enjoy life? If I like what I'm doing, then I am enjoying life. Besides, I only get depressed when I have too much free time.
For now, I guess I'll be staying with tv prod and not moving on to other things. I'm not sure if I'm ready to be an AP, but I'm up to the challenge.  | Tanong | Mar 10, '09 12:42 PM
for everyone |
I already know what I want, but why is it still so hard?
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Actually, alam ko naman ang sagot sa tanong ko. Ang hirap lang talaga Another news report about Mary's accident. Please join me in praying for my dear friend.
Download this and other original video files with Multiply Premium.She's dancing with the angels now. Please help me pray for my dear friend. The news about her death made me remember a dream I once had, a dream I once shared with Mary. She is an inspiraion to all of us, dancers or not.
Download this and other original video files with Multiply Premium. | Mary | Feb 23, '09 11:51 AM
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Last night, I received news that my dear friend Mary Saludares passed away. Up to now, I still can't make sense of what happened. Mary and I spent years of dancing in Steps and I saw her grow up to become a beautiful dancer. She was a simple girl with big dreams, and she went on to fulfill those dreams. When I stopped dancing ballet, she would always tell me "Balik ka na sa Steps, class tayo" but I would always tell her I can't. And now it's me wishing I could tell her "Balik ka na sa Steps, class tayo." --------------------------------------------------------------------- I have this pair of red pants which my college blockmates tagged as the Keina pants. It was my trademark back then. I saw the Keina pants (which has turned pink because of overuse) in my drawer this morning and I remembered it was Mary who convinced me to buy them at a sale in Glorietta. There were only 2 pairs left then, and she bought the other one. We would plan to wear the pants at the same time, but I think we never really did it. --------------------------------------------------------------------- I wanted to write about how I feel about her death but I couldn't do it. Whatever I am feeling now, I don't know what it is. --------------------------------------------------------------------- I love you Mary and I will miss you a lot. I hope you find peace and happiness wherever you are now. And yeah, babalik ako sa Steps. Class tayo? 1. Feb. 27 - PDA Concert Hall
2. March 1 - Lipa Batangas
3. March 6 - Laoag
4. March 8 - Angeles, Pampanga
5. April 17 - Bohol
6. April 19 Roxas City
7. April 24 - Butuan
8. April 26 - General Santos City
9. May 8 - Camarines Sur
For details, abangan niyo na lang sa plugs. di ko alam e Jut like that... it crashed. More or less 80 gigs of files. 80 gigs of memory. 80 gis of MEMORIES. Gone. Just like that. I have been planning to buy an external hard drive to back up my files. And I was planning to buy it tomorrow. One day makes a big difference. | Ang daya | Jan 22, '09 5:06 PM
for everyone |
Bakit hindi pwedeng maging masaya nang hindi nalulungkot? Yepyepyep I'm saying goodbye to quarter-life crisis.
*** Feel it falling off like clothing
Taste it rolling on your tongue
See the lights above you glowing
Oh and breathe them deep into your lungs
It was always simple, not hidden hard
You've been pulling at the strings playing puppeteer for kings
And you've had enough
The past year saw me and a lot of my batchmates struggling with this "quarter-life crisis." In this world that is moving way too fast, it is just too hard to catch up without losing ourselves in the process.
I started to work immediately after graduation. I got so immersed in the ngarag-ness of the world called production, so when I finally had a real break from it all, I couldn't recognize who I've become.
But the search ends here
Where the night is totally clear
And your heart is fierce
So now you finally know that you control where you go
You can steer
And so I thought a lot about what I want to do, where I want to go, what my dreams are. But I did not just THINK. I tried to dance again, reconnect with old friends, strengthen my present relationships, pamper myself because I deserve it, read more books, watch more movies, and be more aware of the bigger world outside myself.
So hold this feeling like a newborn
Of freedom surging through your veins
You have opened up a new door
So bring on the wind, fire and rain
It was always simple, not hidden hard
You've been played at a game called remembering your name
And you stuffed it up
I realize now that I have been so focused and almost frustrated in trying to achieve something or go somewhere, that I've forgotten that it's the "getting there" part that's important.
But the search ends here
Where the night is totally clear
And your heart is fierce
So now you finally know that you control where you go
You can steer
Yup, I finally know that I control where I go.
I can get there. I CAN STEER.
*** lyrics are from Missy Higgins' Steer
| Listahan | Jan 11, '09 3:01 AM
for everyone |
Instead of New Year resolutions, I have come up with my 2009 to-do list. There aren't a lot of things I want to change about me, but there are a lot of things I want/have to do:
- Get a driver's license
- Buy a nice digital camera and take lots of pictures
- Dance. Dance more. Dance seriously. Dance carelessly
- Clean my room and give away stuff I don't need
- Get out of this quarter-life crisis fad
- DREAM
- Learn how to cook
- Love myself more
- Go to more parties
- Read 2 new books per month
- Go out of town at least once a month
- WRITE
- Go to another country (I've never done this)
- Love unconditionally
- Catch up with old friends
- Bungee jump!!!
- Exercise regularly
- Get drunk irregularly
- Watch more movies
- Grow my hair (and brush it more often)
- Read/watch news daily
- Make a difference
By 2010, I should have accomplished all these and more. By now I am more aware of what I want and where I want to go so that's where I'm going.
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